Just walking through time, not dealing with the past. Just walking by everything and everyone. Can there be an end to this? Could it be somewhere, can I change? I don't wait for you, they, them or us to change, just me. Don't want to go anywhere. Don't want to love anyone, don't want someone to love me. Just wan't to be, to be alone with myself. Don't want to tell anyone about anything, don't even want to answer my phone, see anyone. Don't even want to own a cellphone. But I keep answering my phone, talking to people… Why? Do I have to? I really don't want to. I just don't. But they don't understand it. They keep forcing me in relations that I clearly don't want. Just wan't to go far far away. No more exhaustions about all sorts of stuff, I don't care about some girl's pathetic ex-boyfriends or her fat ass. I just don't care… Leave me alone, I don't ask anyone to deal with me either. I don't need to, I can have a chat with myself and when I do, I'm satisfied with myself and relieved I've talked to myself. It's funny but that's how it is. I know myself the best. No one else knows me like that, well there is a person that can come close to that but that's history. He doesn't exist anymore. I have to say goodbye. I will eventually. He doesn't want to have anything with me, when I need him the most… he just doesn't exist anymore. Just have to learn to deal with it properly and understand it for sure. Coming to that… I'm close. I'm going to go away soon, everything will become clear to me there. I will be able to understand life, what it is all about.
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About Me
- Ana
- I like to sleep very much...I study administration in Ljubljana. I always wanted to be an architect but it wasn't meant to be. I am talented but in this cruel world it is not enough. You have to be tough and not look back to reach your goal, but my astrological sign is cancer, so I'm nothing like that. We cancers worry too much and we often turn tiny problems into gigantic disasters. We are very caring and love looking after people. We even like too feel needed, that's definitely my characteristic.
2 comments:
Try to find some new field of interests, or start dowing things you used to do with plaeasure ... enjoy, St.
Zdiš se mi zlo pasivna, ne vem če je to lih zdravo. Mislm, avto bi ti povozu brata...žal! Takle mamo.
Je prou da se malj oddaljiš od ljudi, ker pač vsak rab svoj mir in čas. Še zmer pravm, da se preveč ubadaš z malenkostmi k so se zgodile v preteklosti in včasih je pač treba popustit. Ne vse sabo vlečt, ampak pač odjebeš in to je to. Še posebi pa kar se tiče ljudi k te ne poznajo. Preveč si pustiš, da ti pridejo do živga. K ne bi smela,pač ne sme te brigat kaj si drugi misljo o teb. Especially her.
Plus to, da si preveč v preteklosti; sploh ne razmišlaš stvari naprej, ampak še zmer tist: oh kako je blo lepo takrat pa takrat, s tem pa z unim itd. It's time to let go. Tistga časa ni več, ne bo nikol isto in se je treba pač sprjaznt.
Jeba!
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