Saturday, November 8, 2008
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
The things that bother me the most are eating me alive, those are the things I have no influence on. When you stay powerless, you can't do anything at all, you can just wait… Then it starts. You forget about boundries, about self-respect, pride, you just go towards your goal with an empty head. It's sad. The other person, the person who is doing this to you, knows exactly what he'sdoing. He is accurate, precise, cold. You have done something bad, something that bothered him or hurt his feelings but this is not the way to came back to you. He tortures you till the end of your abilities and than he takes you back like nothing ever happened. It looks silly but he hurts the most in all of this, it doesn't seem like it, but he does. He's the funniest person ever, no one will ever understand him in all ways… Maybe it's for the best. A special creature, which needs to be treated with a measure of caution. He will think a lot, everything will seem superfluous for him but than something will snap and he will realize that it's not so bad. He will be a little grouchy, but then he'll just take you and sweep you off your feet. Everything is going to be alright, I just know it will. »They« just need time and space.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
What is this silence? Is it a calm before the storm, should I prepare? Is it you running away (again)? Is it me hiding from you? Or maybe it's nothing, or maybe all of this? Will I ever know? Do I even want to, do I deserve it… It depends who we ask… All those questions, but only one answer. And will this answer be enough to know the real truth, the real reason why? No! The answer is in you, and only you know it and nobody else. You can tell me the answer, but I'll never truly know. There are so many things attached to it, so many thoughts, feelings… Maybe there is no answer, maybe there's just a change of weather? Maybe the answer is in front of me, but I don't see it? It could be silence, peace, nothing, meaningfulness, emptiness? Maybe there are several answers but I don't believe them. Perhaps you have already told me but I didn't listen or just didn't hear you. Maybe there isn't question at all?
Lately, I've been wondering,
Who will be there to take my place;
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days...
You'll need love
To light the shadows on your face.
I need love to carry me through
All the moments I'd kindly undo.
And maybe I'll find out
The way to make it back one day.
Well, I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you.
I know now, just quite how
My life might still go on.
If I could turn back time
I'd go wherever you will go.