The things that bother me the most are eating me alive, those are the things I have no influence on. When you stay powerless, you can't do anything at all, you can just wait… Then it starts. You forget about boundries, about self-respect, pride, you just go towards your goal with an empty head. It's sad. The other person, the person who is doing this to you, knows exactly what he'sdoing. He is accurate, precise, cold. You have done something bad, something that bothered him or hurt his feelings but this is not the way to came back to you. He tortures you till the end of your abilities and than he takes you back like nothing ever happened. It looks silly but he hurts the most in all of this, it doesn't seem like it, but he does. He's the funniest person ever, no one will ever understand him in all ways… Maybe it's for the best. A special creature, which needs to be treated with a measure of caution. He will think a lot, everything will seem superfluous for him but than something will snap and he will realize that it's not so bad. He will be a little grouchy, but then he'll just take you and sweep you off your feet. Everything is going to be alright, I just know it will. »They« just need time and space.